One Test Can Change Everything

In an instant—everything changed.
After trying on and off with my ex-husband and never getting pregnant, I had accepted that maybe being a mom biologically wasn’t in my story. 

When I went through my divorce, I never thought I would have been 27, single, and no kids. Then this guy who had always been there kissed me out of nowhere, and my life changed in the most fantastic way. Christopher was my missing piece, he made me a better person, and I know God made him just for me. After dating for only six months, I took a pregnancy test and started hyperventilating……pregnant is what I read on that test. I was in my closet getting dressed for the gym and I didn’t think that test would only take a few seconds to scream pregnant at me! I walked out of my closet half-dressed for my workout and screamed Christopher’s name while throwing the pee stick at his head! Haha!!

Christopher had to tell me to lay down because I was freaking out, I kept asking myself so many different questions and at one point I asked Christopher if I was old enough to be a mom! I was 28, I think that is old enough! I guess I had it in my head for the longest time that pregnancy wasn’t going to happen to me. I had blood tests, ultrasounds, and daily tracking with my Ava Bracelet in the past and I knew my body so well. I even told Christopher months before that if he and I could not have kids biologically that I would be complete having Jayden as my only kid.

I called the doctor that day and got a blood test done, they called me later and told me that I was officially pregnant! I still took three more pregnancy tests though because who hasn’t done that?! Haha!

Every week I prayed for a safe pregnancy, I prayed for the nausea to go away, and I prayed that my body would be able to handle the extra weight and pressure. My diet from week 7-19 consisted of a lot of apple sauce, graham crackers, and buttered noodles. I couldnt stand the smell of coffee but could finally stomach it at 21 weeks without smelling it. I ate Taco Bell pretty much every day because the baby needed a cheese quesadilla and cinnamon twists. With being so sick my first trimester I finally was able to gain the right amount of weight my doctor wanted me to and had a perfect little bump!

At twenty weeks we found out our little guy had a double vessel cord, it is not an uncommon thing but something we had to watch for. I never felt so much worry and anxiety in my life until we sat down with the doctor that day and found out the diagnosis. I blamed myself even though I didn’t do anything to cause it but I felt like it was my fault. Right, when I found out I was pregnant I felt this instant bond with that little bean, I wanted to take care of it, and make sure I gave it the best life possible. When you hear that something isn’t “perfect” about your unborn baby you worry and you worry every single day. With each ultrasound and check-up, we knew our little guy was growing healthily and safely in my belly and I felt so much better.


I made it to 37 weeks and then the story gets pretty interesting…..I feel like Christopher does a good job of explaining our birth story than I do! You can find it here on his blog!
http://ctysonphotography.com/barhett-wilder-tyson/

Throughout my pregnancy I couldn’t help but feel so blessed, I thought the chances of me being pregnant were slim and I was starting to get to the point of acceptance. I know other people struggle, they struggle with every part of the TTC journey. I had a taste of it for two years and my heart broke. I pray for so many women and marriages. Just know that you are loved, you are enough, and you are not alone. It needs to be talked about and it needs to be awareness so other women don’t feel so alone.

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